Another New Year

There was no party for me last night. My New Year's Eve was simply a quiet evening at home and an early bedtime, reading and snuggling with the cats.
I hoped I would awake this morning with thoughtful comments about the passing of the old year and the arrival of the new. But, alas, I did not. Several of my blogging friends had thoughtful comments to share. I was not among them.
It is tempting to write a retrospective about 2007, or to write about my hopes for 2008. But, having been alive for about 52 of these year-end passings, I just can't seem to mount the temerity to offer any wise words about the global situation.

I wish our nation could return to civil, intelligent discourse. But I don't really see any hope for that occurring. There was a time when I hoped that Hillary might become our next president, and our first woman in that office. But then I reflected on her vote to authorize the unjustified attack on and occupation of Iraq, and I am convinced she lacks the wisdom to make the crucial decisions that may need to be made. I don't see anyone in either party whom I would trust to make wise and long-view decisions. I fear that, when the 2008 elections come 'round, I'll wish that "none of the above" was a legitimate option.
I wish for peace in the Episcopal Church, and I wish the Anglican Communion would get on with being the marvelous witness it could be. I am weary of blogging about all this. There are signs now that the right-wing is going to gnaw itself apart.

Frankly, there are times when it's hard for me to tell the difference between our weak-lipped Republican overseers and our faint-hearted Episcopal/Anglican leaders. I find it sad and ironic that one of the strongest defenses of the Episcopal Church recently has come from a lesbian atheist.
I give thanks for the progress my Episcopal parish has made. We have a new rector, and I see many signs of hope there. I want to put my energies there and less in the Big Fat Anglican Brouhaha.

Fifteen months ago, I started having problems with my hands. I am thankful that I finally got a diagnosis and have a prescription that seems to have my hands operating more functionally. And I give huge thanks that I have health insurance that has made this possible. I lived for a couple of years without health insurance. I know how blessed I am!
I am glad I have a job that pays a living wage. "It's a living," as they say. My real passion is my work on The Episcopal Majority site and my own blog. This year, a colleague left her job at the archives to become executive director of the local Habitat for Humanity. When she left, I told her I was envious of her, that she would now be able to have her paycheck and her vocation and passion coming from the same place.
Over the past year, I have been able to reconnect with some friends whom I thought lost to me. I am deeply grateful that they have been able to forgive me for the wounds I've inflicted in the past – things done and left undone.
I am grateful that I still have both my cats. Some of you will remember that Scotty has had a couple of near-misses with death in the past 15 months. Even as he seems to grow more frail, I am grateful that he is still here with me. Today we spent a couple of hours with him in my arms. Every day that we're together, I am more grateful for the time we've shared. Seventeen years so far . . .
So … I enter 2008 with many bits of backward-looking gratitude, but few bits of optimism for the future. I suppose that leaves me in a position to be surprised by joy next year. That would be nice.
2 Comments:
I like your wishes a lot. I pray that God blesses you and makes them all come true...the big little ones as well as the little big ones.
Shalom,
Andrew+
Thank you, Andrew. "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." (Hebrews 11:1)
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